I know I am in love with another woman. It seems like every song is to her, every thought I have is of her, and I can’t stop these lovely feelings, nor do I want to. The problem is she does not express her feelings easily. I don’t know if she fears intimacy is incapable of intimacy or just doesn’t feel the same way I do. Do you have any insight on love and intimacy and the difference between them?
At the end of last month, I was in a coffee shop with my girlfriend, Brittany, working on my schedule of articles for this month, trying to come up with ideas which would still be relevant within the next few weeks, and then I remembered an idea from a couple of weeks before. I turned to her and asked, “Will you write a guest post, talking about what it’s like for you?” Which seems like a very vague question, but we have a constant dialogue about gender and are constantly asking each other questions, I about her experience in dating a transman and she about all facets of my knowledge of gender.
In spite of being in a “successful” relationship and having a few really great friends I can’t get over the fact that something seems lacking in my life. My partner and I are happy going our separate ways and retuning to home base. We have love, acceptance and mutual interactions and support, but something emotional is missing and I’m not sure what it is. We love each other even more than ever. Yet, I am an emotionally unfulfilled woman. What are the expectations for emotional fulfillment?
I always look forward to Gay Pride Month because of all the parades, parties and gay events that promote pride and acceptance. However, my girlfriend seems to dread them and says it’s because she is jealous of all the beautiful lesbians who make her feel less than beautiful. I am a quasi-gay activist and find it difficult to understand why she fails to get the celebration.
Proud to Be Out